It is hard to believe that a new year has started. So much has changed over the course of the last year and so much has remained the same. We are now 8 years into a new decade. A View has been around now for since 2003. A lot has happened since that time and my idea of having a blog that was a daily journal of my life just hasn't panned out. Now I must come to the dilemma do I keep the blog going or do I pack it in and try something new. I think that I will try one more time to make a go of it. I had dreamed that by now I would have at least a few regular readers, and those who would post comments. I must confess a few disappointments in this area. Though that is quite possibly my fault.
Well a New Year is the ultimate in new beginnings. So I will be making a new beginning to A View. We are starting over in many ways this year. We have started to attend a new church. One were there is less chance of having the past rear its ugly head. I have started a new job at work. It is enjoyable but carries with it its own stress. I am determined to try and get my web design business up and running, that is going to take some work and unfortunately some money.
I must admit that I am really fighting the depression and with it the desire just to run away and do nothing. It is a despair feeling that no matter what I do it just will not work. We are in serious financial difficulties, have some serious transportation issues, housing is sub par and barely meets our needs. I really just want to throw my hands up and say enough is enough. I give up, I have no more fingers to stick into the dike to hold back the tide. I know this is not the right feeling, but it is the urge that is overwhelming me right now. There is so much I want to accomplish this year. Some of the items I am looking at accomplishing this year, not in any particular order.
1) Establish my business in Springfield.
2) Read the Bible on a regular basis.
3) Write more (my blog and maybe do some short story or novel writing)
4) Improve my marriage in at least 1 tangible way.
That is enough for one year. Now I just have to figure out how to do it.